whew, havent posted in a while.
today the GCE O levels results came out. it gave me a shock of reality i thought i was sure i had already overcomed.
my mood just went down. i was happy for those tt did well, but the idea of my chinese O levels coming in what 5 months is so soon, its a little scary.
and of all days there had to be stupid chinese enrichment, to further emphasize the long way i had to go from attempting to get an A2. with limited dictionary help, a bit of memory from tuition, i managed to piece tgt a compo tt was succint and relatively smooth, sth i have come so far to being able to do. hahas
right now what i need is FAITH,
faith in the unknown and unpredictable future.
faith so that along the way i wouldnt give up.
faith in things beyond my control but under God’s.
i have been thinking about the idea of euthanesia alot, and it has alot to do with faith. put aside religon or rules, the concept of euthanesia is the complete denial of the power of human faith.
there’ve been people that come back from the brink of death. yes there are.
yes its often said people have the right to end their own lives, but some times rights and practicality are the most worthless argument. cos they’re self centred. and narrow minded. allowing euthanesia is like breaking up whenever a couple feels like they should, or allowing ppl to kill themselves everytime ppl feel suicidal. they have the right to what. why not.
cos human life is sacred. faith is why ppl go on after ppl have been beaten down half dead. its why ppl wake up from comas. or survive wars. they become an inspiration because their having faith paid off.
so now, though im not exactly at the ‘brink of death’, im gonna have faith anyway as an extra driving force.
i still have so much to undergo.
ANYWay, i cooked this today: