sometimes i think im really blessed cos ive already figured out what i wanna do.
other times i think im such a blind ignorant fool.
i have no idea what the future holds. im not saying my future looks bleak. i know im capable. thats not the prob.
its the why.
is this where religon comes in? as a crutch or as a key.
everything is so narrow and insignificant compared to the purpose of God.
i feel that all my thoughts, my emotions and my entire being all lead up to His.
i dont feel like im fighting back. just resisting what could be utter nothingness.
sigh. im so stuck.